Saturday, December 29, 2012

By end of 2012 have you...


Strike what you’ve done.
NOTE: I'm assuming that they mean UP TO 2012. Not what I've done IN 2012...
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Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado. 
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself. 
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

88 random questions

Sorry. Writer's block on the story. But, here are 88 random questions I've answered.


1    1.  Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed? Closed
2.    Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? If they smell good. xD
3.    Have you ever ‘done it’ in a hotel room? Nope
4.    Where is your next vacation? Not planned
5.    Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No
6.    Who do you think reads these? Rachael. That’s about it.
7.    Do you have a calendar in your room? Kind-of…xD
8.    Where are you? Home
9.    What’s your plan for the day? It’s night. Sleep in a few hours.
10.  Are you reading any books right now? GOT, Les Mis…xD A few others.
11.  Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Yes.
12.  Have you ever peed in the woods? Yes.
13.  Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? Yes.
14.  Do you chew your pens and pencils?  Yes.
15.  What is your “Song of the Week”?
16.  Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Depends on the shade.
17.  Do you still watch cartoons? Yes.
18.  Whats your favorite love movie? It’s tough to choose.
19.  What do you drink with dinner? Water. Or the blood from my fallen enemies. xD
20.  What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in? Ranch. Sometimes Ketchup.
21.  What is your favorite food/cuisine? Mediterranean.
22.  What movies could you watch over and over and still love? LOTR, The Hobbit, Labyrinth, V for Vendetta…
23.  Last person you hugged/kissed? Hugged: Rachael. Kissed: Lisa (my cousin) maybe?
24.  Were you ever a boy/girl scout? Yes.
25.  Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? No.
26.  When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? This past summer.
27.  Can you change the oil on a car? Halfway there. xD
28.  Ever gotten a speeding ticket? No.
29.  Run out of gas? Yes.
30.  Favorite kind of sandwich? Gyro.
31.  Best thing to eat for breakfast? Leftover pizza. XD
32.  What is your usual bedtime? Depends on the day.
33.  Are you lazy? Sometimes.
34.  When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? Dorothy from wizard of oz, devil princess, vampire….
35.  Do you have any magazine subscriptions? None voluntarily. xD
36.  Which are better, legos or lincoln logs? Oh, hard choice…Lincoln logs.
37.  Are you stubborn? YESH.
38.  Who is better…Leno or Letterman? Eh…I can’t tell them apart usually.
39.  Ever watch soap operas? No.
40.  Afraid of heights? Yes.
41.  Sing in the car? Always.
42.  Dance in the shower? Sometimes.
43.  Dance in the car? Sometimes.
44.  Ever used a gun? Yes.
45.  Do you think musicals are cheesy? Nope.
46.  Is Christmas stressful? YES.
47.  Ever eat a pierogi? YES.
48.  Major annoyance right now? My mother and siblings.
49.  Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Carpenter, marine biologist, physical science teacher.
50.  Do you believe in ghosts? Yes
51.  Ever have a deja-vu feeling? Yes
52.  Do you take a vitamin daily? Should
53.  Wear slippers? Yes
54.  Wear a bath robe? No
55.  What do you wear to bed? Nothing on some nights, lmao. Other nights it’s a tee and underwear. xD
56.  Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart? I’ll shop at 1 and 2. 3 is…bleh.
57.  Nike or Adidas? Neither. Dr. Scholls.
58.  Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos.
59.  Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts.
60.  Ever hear of, “gorp”? trailmix? Yeah. xD
61.  Ever taken karate? Yes
62.  Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Yes
63.  Can you curl your tongue? Yes
64.  Ever won a spelling bee? Yes
65.  Ever cried because you were so happy? Yes
66.  Own any record albums? Used to
67.  Own a record player? Somewhere
68.  Regularly burn incense? Yes
69.  Ever been in love? Yes
70.  Hot tea or cold tea: Both.
71.  Tea or coffee? Both
72.  Favorite kind of cookie? Chocolate chip
73.  Can you swim well? yes
74.  Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? Yes
75.  Are you patient? Yes
76.  Ever won a contest? Yes
77.  Ever had plastic surgery? No
78.  Which are better black or green olives? Black
79.  Can you knit or crochet? Knit well, crochet beginner
80.  Wash room or bathroom? bathroom
81.  Do you want to get married? yes
82.  Who was your High School crush? Angel Monhollen. xD
83.  Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? No
84.  Do you have kids? No
85.  Do you want kids? someday
86.  What kind of mom are you? A good one. xD
87.  Do you miss anyone right now? Yes
88.  Who do you want to see right now? A few people.

Friday, December 28, 2012

Stolen from Rachael.

I'm bored. And people are either busy or sleeping. So I'm going to do this. THEN I may write more to my story. xD


Would you hook up with the last boy you texted? Yes.
When was the last time you were told you were cute? It's been a while....
What does your last received text message say? "(Visit YarkAuto.com) Snow moving in by midnight. 1-2" by morning in Toledo. -2-3" in our extreme sourthernmost counties."
When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life? It's been a few years.
When’s the next time you will see the person who absolutely takes your breath away? I probably won't.
What are you most looking forward to tomorrow? Nothing, really...

What is your relationship status? Single.
Do you think you will be in a relationship two months from now? Nope.
What is your background on your phone? A waterfall in a rainforest.
What’s your relationship with the person you last texted? In a relationship.
Have you ever had someone pick you up off the ground and carry you? Not voluntarily. xD
Has the last person you kissed ever told you they love you? Yes.
Do you still pinky promise? Rarely.
When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? The Hobbit movie...Cameron and Charles both gave me hugs. :)
What are you listening to right now? Braveheart movie (watching it on Netflix)
Your best friend has sex with your ex, so what happens? I just giggled at this question. I don't think any of them would have that big of a lapse in judgement.
Have you taken off someones clothes lately? Does clinical count? If not, no.
Your friend kisses the boy/girl you like? I don't believe they would.
Honestly who was the last person to tell you they love you? Rachael.
Is it possible to be single and happy? For some people. I try to convince myself that I am. Failing miserably, btw.
Do you find piercings attractive? In the right places.
Have you ever kissed underneath the stars? Nope.
Do you miss your past? Some parts of it.
Last person you kissed? Ah hell...IDR.
What did you do today? got lied to....got charged a bogus late fee...had that fee removed....emailed...been alone.

Ever been in love? Not for a long time.
What will you do in two hours? Probably same thing I'm doing now.
Whats on your bed right now? Pillows, blanket, sheets, sewing kit, remote controls to TV/DVD/PS3.
Where did you sleep last night? In my bed.
Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? Nope.
Are you happy with the way things are? with some parts of it, I suppose.
Do you always answer your texts? Nope.
Are you happier now? Or were you happier 4 months ago? Happier 4 months ago.
In the past week, have you cried? yes.
Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009? Definitely not.
It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it? Damn Bailey. Or something has happened in family.
Do you like your phone? Yes.
If you woke up naked next to the last person you texedt what would you say? xD. I would hope it would never happen. XD
What are the main websites you go on? Facebook, blogger, IMVU, hex, yahoo mail.
Would you be able to name everyone you have kissed in ‘10? I barely kissed anyone. So yes.
Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind? Yes.
Do you still talk to the last person you kissed? Nope.


And that was mildly depressing...

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Part 3!!

Apparently Rachael is the only one reading this.... o.o

But she asked for it. I'm still...wanting...to...delete...it....xD

Such a bad post...BAD.

Gah. Here it is. xD

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Though it only took two full days of riding to arrive home safely, Adrienne’s condition had worsened. Sweat soaked through her clothing and her skin was white hot, not cooling even as the air around her did so. She’d grown delirious, calling out for Adam, fighting against Jonathan, trying to get up to find her love. Jonathan had finally had to pull her to his chest and hold her there, wrapping the blanket around the both of them, holding her sweat-soaked body against his as she cried.

And then she’d lost consciousness all together. She’d mumbled things incoherently and struggled a little against Jonathan, but he didn’t even have to try hard to keep her against him. By the time they actually got to the healer’s house, Adrienne was pale and her body lay limp against Jonathan’s. He wouldn’t let anyone touch her as he stood, allowing them to move the blanket to just around Adrienne so he could carry her inside.

“She’s dying. It appears to be a severe infection…” The old woman said. Her name was Galen, and she was the best healer in the four realms. But the news coming from the woman’s mouth didn’t help Jonathan any. If only he’d found her sooner…if only he could have prevented her from even fighting…

“…drank anything that could have been contaminated?” Galen’s voice suddenly interrupted Jonathan’s thoughts. He looked up at the woman and blinked. “What?” he asked.

“Could Adrienne have eaten or drank anything that could have been contaminated?” she asked again.
Jonathan frowned. “I suppose so…but we boiled all of our water…” He said. “All of it. Even the things we used to wash our clothes and such in…” he told her.

As the woman started peeling off Adrienne’s clothes, Jonathan hesitated. He watched with baited breath as her body was revealed. Instead of looking healed or even close, the wounds were dark red and didn’t look healthy at all. The bandage covering the wound on her side was removed, and the dressings that came off were dripping in blood and what looked like pus. Jonathan made an involuntary noise in the back of his throat.

“This seems to be the problem.” The woman clicked her tongue.

“She said she was changing them.” Jonathan said defensively. He remembered. They were running low on supplies, so he’d told her to go and change her bandages. She’d argued about the other men needing it more, but she’d still left and went to the tent.

Jonathan suddenly felt sick then. He took one glance at Adrienne and then walked out into the fresh air. He wanted to hit something, someone. This wasn’t fair!

There was a weak and garbled cry from inside of the house, and Jonathan flinched. The next cry was louder, but it was still weak, reminding Jonathan of an animal badly injured and dying.

When the scream became so agonized and weak that it made others look, Jonathan went back inside. Galen was treating Adrienne’s wounds, cleaning them and stuffing weird looking leaves into the wounds before dressing them. She was muttering something in another language and Adrienne was almost violently thrashing on the table, but Galen had somehow managed to keep from being hit.

Jonathan walked back outside and stood by the doorway. He couldn’t stay in there. He didn’t like seeing Adrienne in so much pain. He should have gone with her to watch her bandages get changed. Now she might die because of it.

It took a few hours for Adrienne to finally settle. Galen worked constantly trying to break the fever and finally succeeded around midnight.

With the luck of the gods, Adrienne woke the next afternoon. Jonathan had taken a room at the nearby inn, and the only person there was Galen. She smiled a toothy smile at Adrienne and turned back to the fire for a moment, pouring a hot liquid into a cup before bringing the cup over to Adrienne. “Drink this. It will help with the pain.” She said softly.

Adrienne sat up a little, wincing at the pain in her side, but took the cup with a steady hand and took a sip from it. She gagged and choked a little, making a face. “What is it?” She asked, looking into the cup. “Tea.” The woman said simply before disappearing outside for a few moments. “Drink all of it!” she called inside.

Adrienne made a face, trying to figure out the ingredients. She could definitely taste the Valerian now…and some other ingredients…but the woman was right. The pain ebbed, but Adrienne’s thoughts also turned fuzzy and blurry.

The woman returned a short while later just in time to catch the cup before it fell to the floor as Adrienne dozed. Adrienne woke up and blinked sleepily at the woman. “I want to sit up.” She said softly. So, Galen helped her to sit up and put pillows and such behind her back to help prop her up. Adrienne barely got her words of thanks out of her mouth before she was back drifting to sleep…

And that was how Jonathan found her when he came in a few hours later. There were bags under his eyes and he was pale. It looked as if he hadn’t really slept in a week, but the tousled hair said otherwise. It stated that Jonathan had probably tried to sleep, but tossed and turned instead.

He walked over to Adrienne and took her hand. She opened her eyes sleepily and gave him a small smile. When he didn’t return her smile, Adrienne frowned.

“Why didn’t you change the bandages like you needed to?” He asked. Adrienne didn’t respond and averted her gaze. His grip tightened on her hand. “Why didn’t you?” He said, his voice turning darker. Adrienne winced and shook her head. “The men needed the bandages more than I did.” She told him. “I figured we’d be in town soon enough and we’d deal with it then.” She explained meekly.

Jonathan didn’t seem swayed. “Are you going to keep trying to kill yourself?” He asked her firmly. When she didn’t answer, “Adam wanted you to live!” He added. “Why do you think I’m so hell bent on keeping you alive?” he hissed. “I promised him! I was there right when he died!” He added, releasing Adrienne’s hand and standing, running his fingers through his hair, messing it up further.

His body was tense, and it was now obvious that Jonathan had indeed not slept. He was in agony.

“I’m not trying to k—“

“Stop lying, Adrienne!” Jonathan yelled. Adrienne flinched.

The tears came quickly and without warning. Adrienne was tired, but she was also afraid to speak the words Jonathan needed to hear. “I thought you wouldn’t notice…” She told him. “I tried to hide it. I didn’t mean to pass out in the woods…” her voice broke as Jonathan made a noise in the back of his throat. “He died…and…I don’t know what I’m supposed to do without him!” She added.

“I’d heard about the other men and what happened to their wounds…they have families, wives, children…I have nothing except loneliness to go back to. Adam was everything! If anyone finds out what I’ve done…I’m dead anyway.” She told him. “So why wait?” she added, feeling groggy.

Jonathan looked lost. He sighed softly and then leaned down, touching Adrienne’s tearstained cheeks. He brushed them away gently and met her beautiful eyes. “Because you’re so much better than that…” he whispered to her. The world blurred and turned fuzzy…

And then he kissed her softly.

Adrienne didn’t know what to do. Everything seemed to be spinning and hot…and Jonathan’s lips were so soft and warm against hers. Eventually she leaned into his kiss, their lips melding together. His hands found their way to her hair, and her arms found a way around his neck. Tears fell down her cheeks as she kissed him, but he didn’t stop.

After a short while, Jonathan broke the kiss. He could tell that Adrienne was already succumbing to the medicine Galen had given her. “I promised him I’d take care of you and find you a suitable husband.” He whispered to her. “And that’s what I’ll do.” He added, straightening up as Adrienne fell asleep, a small smile on her face.

“Adrienne?”

The voice was firm, but Adrienne roused from her sleep. She looked around the darkened room and spotted Jonathan sitting next to her on the bed.

“Adrienne.” It was Jonathan’s voice.

“You passed out on me when I touched your cheek. Are you okay?” his voice wasn’t making sense.

“No I didn’t.” Adrienne mumbled, trying to focus on his face more. “You…we talked.” She told him. Jonathan shook his head. “No…the last thing I told you was that you were better than killing yourself. Then you lost consciousness.” He said, raising an eyebrow.

“Then…the rest was a dream?” she asked. Jonathan’s brow wrinkled as he nodded. “Yes.”

“It felt so real.” Adrienne sighed, her heart clenching. “Did Adam tell you to help find me a husband?” She asked him. Jonathan looked startled, but nodded. “We can discuss this when you’re better. You need rest…” He told her softly.

Adrienne sighed and nodded. “Okay.” She told him, a little disappointed. From his words, they hadn’t kissed…she should have felt relief, but she only felt an aching hole in her chest. The last thing she felt before she finally fell asleep was Jonathan’s fingers running through her hair and Galen in the background humming an old tune that reminded her of a lullaby.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Top 10 Pet Peeves

Starting from least annoying to most annoying:

10. Doing something that I've asked you not to do, like touch me or poke me...Teasing when I'm not in the mood for it will definitely get you put on my shit list quick.
9. Texting me and then not sending a text back until 3 a.m. And then sending me multiple texts until I answer or until you figure, "huh. Maybe she's asleep."
8. Asking how to do vitals in clinical when you're a JUNIOR in college and that was your first ever check off Freshman year.
7. Christmas music in November.
6. Foot-in-mouth disease. I mean, seriously. Think before you speak. Telling me that I'm fat, but I make it look good is not a compliment.
5. Failing to use turn signals to cut over into the lane or to make a turn. They work. That's what they're there for. TO SIGNAL.
4. Repetition. Asking the same thing over and over again: "Will you do this for me?" (two minutes later) "Will you do this for me?" Seriously? My response was already given.
3. Grammar. Bad Grammar. Putting commas in the wrong spot and using your instead of you're or there instead of their....gahh!
2. Calling me/Texting me on my cell phone when you want me instead of going to my door and knocking. WHILE you're in the same house. (Applies mostly to family members)
1. Expecting respect when you can't give it.

A rant

So, basically the end of this weekend has been hellish.

Friday night I ended up passing out going to bed extremely early. But I was up and down because my back started bothering me again and I just couldn't get comfortable.

Then Saturday came along and I just....It was okay..I relaxed and studied a little, and the day was mostly quiet. I had some words with a choice few people about things that were bothering me, but I believe they went in one ear and out of the other.

Sunday was the worst. It's such a long story and it really irritates me, so I'll give the abbreviated version.

Jennifer is a bitch. She thinks that because she's failing at BG that she needs to treat me like I'm some sort of monster. Even when we're actually getting along, ten minutes later she's all *rawr!* type and it isn't the cute roar. It's like the type that makes you believe that they really want to tear your head off.

Anyway...

Christmas tree was put up Saturday evening. Sunday morning, our one kitten, Nicknamed Stinky (He farts every time you pick him up. Gassiest cat I know), decided to climb into the tree and knock it over.

Thank goodness it's artificial and thank goodness no bulbs were harmed.

Well, I was woke up to re-string the lights and everything and I did it. I was fine.

Then not even 45 minutes later, the damn thing is knocked over again.

Bulbs were shattered.

Some of them were ones that we've had for years...like, over ten years. Some were hand-blown and specially made...

That broke my heart. So as I was picking up the tree, and trying my hardest not to cry, Jennifer helps to pick up the broken pieces to the bulbs to toss them. Then she returns holding a cat. "Tell sissy hi!" She coos to the cat. I shook my head and sighed, and counted to ten. "I don't want to talk to the cat. I just want to get everything back together so I can study. You said you'd pick up the bulbs, but you're holding the cat and I almost stepped on one, which would have shredded my feet..."

Well, I didn't get to go further than that. Jenn and I got into a big argument and I found out how manipulative the little brat could be. She left, which was fine with me, but mom yelled at me and I was told to keep my mouth off of her. But I hadn't said anything mean. Not really. Not until she started her shit.

So....that was my sunday. Jenn left to go to her friend's house and Jamie and mom had to go to a concert. So I was stuck at home "tree sitting." Which was fine. I did some Pharm homework and studied and it was nice and peaceful.

But I was still so pissed.

So when Jenn got home, she started her shit again. By this time i was totally over it and had moved on. I tried not to get hooked, but when she started saying that I said I hated my family, that's what struck a chord. I told her that she had better leave the room before my fist knocked out her teeth. Because that was untrue and it was an insult. At that moment, I was VERY close to hating her. VERY close.

But I don't.

But she thinks she has it so rough and blah blah because she's failing. I get it. I'm stressed too. Doesn't mean you need to flip out at the flip of a switch. Now when I was really stressed and my grandfather died, and I was in the accident, exacerbated Sciatica, and had a bad clinical experience all within three days of each other, I was about to scream. Plus all of the disappointments that I'd been having. It wasn't even close to what she had problems with..

And 99% of the problems she had, were HERS. Not the school's. Like, not understanding homework and expecting the teacher to hold her hand through the process. It doesn't work that way. I offered to help, but she refused it. So no. I'm done. I'm not offering help anymore. If she wants it, she'll have to schedule it in advance according to MY schedule.

Yep.

Part 2 of the Untitled Story.


Okay. So just for Rachael (who seems to be the only one reading it...) this is part two. xD It's...longer...than the first part. But...there will be more. I'll try to keep it going. ^.^  Still need a title. Ideas are welcome. Comment or message them to me. :)

So, without further ado...
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Part 2
It took three days for Adrienne to regain consciousness. The stench of death, mud, and rot hit her nostrils full on, and when she exhaled, it emerged as a weak groan. The pain in her head was constant; throbbing, aching, sharp and dull and increasing the more she woke. She felt stiff and cold and she could barely feel her fingers or her toes. The rest of her body slowly came back into her consciousness and she felt as if she were lying on an oddly soft bed.

Deciding that she couldn’t keep her eyes closed for forever, Adrienne slowly opened her eyes to take in her surroundings. She was no longer on the battlefield, and she was neither in the healing tents or the one she’d been assigned. The tent here was elaborate, the fabric pristine and new. Well, newer than what her tent had looked like. The tent that hadn’t even been hers…

Adrienne pulled herself from her thoughts as she tried to move her head, trying to see more of where she was. When she finally turned her head to the right, she saw a figure sleeping in a chair next to where she was laying. Jonathan.

Almost as if he could sense her watching him, Jonathan awoke with a jerk. His eyes landed on her, and instantly they softened. He didn’t speak, but it was clear he was relieved.

“Where…?” Adrienne tried to speak, but her voice was dry and cracked, and it hurt to speak. But thankfully Jonathan knew what she was asking.

“In the High Commander’s tent.” He replied. “He was killed in the fight…We only have one hundred men or so left…about one quarter are injured…” He said. “As soon as I got permission I brought you here. It’s warmer and cleaner than most of the other tents…and…more private…” he added. His eyes flitted over her body for a moment and then he averted his gaze.

Adrienne was confused for a few long moments before she realized what he had meant about the privacy. Her cheeks reddened, for she could not feel anything except the blanket that had been pulled over her body and up to her shoulders.

When she inhaled deeply next, Adrienne could feel every bruise, cut, and scrape that she had acquired. All from her toes up to her head. She grimaced and tried wiggling her fingers and toes, relieved when she could with minor pain.

“Adrienne, you really should just res—“

“Hush, Jonathan.” Adrienne gasped as she tensed a few very tender spots. She could hear Jonathan’s frustrated sigh and the rustling of clothes as he stood. Adrienne didn't care. She was too focused on getting back to moving.

Soon Adrienne could move her arms and her legs with no problems, but from where she’d felt the pain before, she was terrified to see the damage from her shoulders to her hips.

“I insist, Adrienne.” Jonathan finally said as she started to pull the blanket from her body. Adrienne hesitated. His voice was full of anguish and something else. It almost seemed a mix of fear and sadness.

“You don’t have to stay…” She told him. “I’m actually dying of thirst.” She added, giving him an excuse to leave.

He hesitated for a moment and then nodded. “Don’t get up.” He told her firmly. Then there was a slight breeze from the flap of the tent opening before she was left alone.

Adrienne pulled the blanket from her body and ignored the shivers she felt. And then she saw them. There were cuts, some superficial, some deeper, all over her abdomen. As her fingers ran over the bandages, she moved to roll onto her side.

A severe sharp pain that stole her breath stopped her. Adrienne’s hand flew to her side where a particularly thick set of bandages had been attached. She noticed now that most of the stiffness she felt on her abdominal area was the fact that they’d wrapped bandages all around her body, affixing the bandages to her side firmly so they wouldn’t move. The bandages were already soaked with blood, a few hours old she could tell from the color.

Most of the cuts would scar. There would be no way to heal them effectively. The one on her side would definitely do so…

Tears burned her eyes and she pulled the blanket back over her body and lay still, listening to the wind beat against the tent and the sounds of men yelling and talking…

She didn’t want to know any more.

By the time that Jonathan returned with water, she’d wiped her tears away.

“I’d like some clothing.” She told him as he entered the tent. He nodded with a small smile and helped her to sit up slowly, letting her rest against his warm body (and from what she could tell, there wasn’t much damage done to her back except bruises) as she took the glass from him and drank the water eagerly. She noted that it was still slightly warm, from being boiled.

“I could try to find some of the women who were helping in the tents to help you get dressed.” Jonathan said after he’d helped Adrienne lay back down when she finished with her water. He was digging through a pack, looking for clothing suitable for Adrienne that wouldn’t be too large, but also wouldn’t be too tight. After he found a pair of breeches and a tunic for her, he held them up and she nodded her approval. But Jonathan was surprised to see a smirk on her face and her eyes glittering.

“Tell me, Jonathan. Was it women who undressed me and bandaged my wounds?” She asked him. Jonathan’s face turned crimson and he shook his head. “Was it the other men?” she asked him, half hoping that his next answer was no as well. When it was, she felt a sort of relief. “So it was you.” She told him. He nodded.

“Then why should it be any different that I am conscious when you dress me?” She whispered. His eyes met hers and he smiled a little. “I was just offering.” He told her. He wanted to tell her that he’d spoken with Adam as he was dying…but the news would probably bring more pain and grief than comfort.

***
“Promise me, Jonathan…that…you’ll take care of our girl…” Adam choked. Jonathan cursed the tears falling down his cheeks, but it looked just like the rain falling down his cheeks. He kept brushing the water from Adam’s face, shaking his head. “You’re going to live, Adam…you have to…” he choked. Adam winced as his breath caught in his throat. “Won’t…you know that…”Adam said.

It seemed like time had stopped then. Their conversation had been no more than a few moments, but to Jonathan and Adam, it had been a full conversation they’d been having for hours. Adam knew Jonathan would honor his dying wishes, he trusted Jonathan and no other with Adrienne’s well-being and safety.
“She’s…she’s still pure…” he gasped. “You have to protect her…help her find a good man…good family…”

Jonathan’s heart was breaking. “Adam…”

“Promise…!”

“I…I promise. But it’s stupid to make me promise. You’re going to be fine and then we’ll laugh at this after you’re all better….” He said, glancing up to see Adrienne fighting so many men that they were just a rush of bodies. But Adrienne was holding her own on the field. “She’s so brave. Fighting still now…” he told Adam.

When he looked back down at Adam’s body,his friend's eyes had slid unfocused and his jaw was slack. The color had drained from his face, and already the heat was leaving his body. When Adam placed shaking fingers against his friend's throat, there was no pulse. 

Fire raged in his veins. Anger and hurt. He wanted to kill all of them. Adam was dead because of them!

Jonathan gently laid Adam down on the ground and stood. Adrienne was slowly losing her momentum now. The men had sensed anguish and weakness and had gone after it. He ran through the mud, trying not to step on any dead bodies, or anyone who was alive. He made it to the fray just as the blade sliced into Adrienne’s side and slid his sword right through the weak point in the man's armor. He hadn't had any warning, and Jonathan honestly didn't care. 

As another man came at him, he turned and re-joined the fight. Adrienne didn't even seem to notice the gash in her side or the blood pooling out of it. She just kept fighting...

***
Adrienne sighed a little and pulled at the tunic. “I wish it was tighter around this part here…” She muttered to Jonathan as he finished tying a cord around her hips to keep the pants up. They were just slightly bigger than her hips and kept slipping.

Jonathan looked at her with a raised eyebrow. Adrienne sighed and nodded. “I know…I know…” She muttered.

To him, Adrienne looked beautiful, even in the shabby brown of the tunic and pants she was wearing. He’d even found her a pair of boots that fit her better than the last pair. 

He managed to convince her to rest for the rest of the day.

---

By the end of the fifth day post-battle, Adrienne was walking around short distances from the tent. She assisted where she was allowed, and helped sometimes to perform the funeral rites as they burned the dead. The other army had come in the night to gather their dead, and just over the opposing hilltop, Adrienne could see the smoke from the stacks where the men were burning the bodies of their fallen comrades.

When the smell of burning flesh and decay became too much for Adrienne, she would wander away toward the woods that lined the rear of their camp. Some said the trees were haunted, but all Adrienne saw was a serene and peaceful place. Even the most beautiful of things had dark shadows inside, though, where pain and secrets were hidden.

Soon it was time to pack up the camp. Adrienne had decided to go for a walk in the woods one last time and wandered farther than she ever had before. She stopped at the top of a slope to catch her breath against a tree when she suddenly felt faint and everything started to blur and move in unnatural ways. She frowned and slid down the trunk of the tree and felt the wave of nausea just as the bile ran up her throat, giving her only enough time to launch herself onto her side as she vomited the entire contents of the venison stew they’d made just an hour earlier. 

Then she felt cold. Her teeth chattered and her focus disappeared. She pulled the jacket closer around her body just as she heard men yelling her name, looking for her. 

"I'm here!" she said, but her voice seemed to have been eaten up by the trees...

***

“Don’t you dare die on me, Adrienne! I’ll bring you back from the dead just so I can kill you myself!” Jonathan’s voice was angry and low, and she didn't even realize she’d been staring at him until she blinked and saw him next to her. She looked up at the sky and was surprised when she saw that they were moving. She frowned a little in confusion until they hit a bump and she realized that they were in a cart. When she looked to the opposite side of the cart, she saw men carrying items, tents, pots, pans, sacks of food…

Guilt wracked her as she realized what had happened. They’d cleared a cart for her and were carrying the load that should have been in it. “Let me up. I can walk.” She said softly, but her voice was barely audible.

“ You've a fever and you've not kept any water or anything down for the past six hours. You aren't getting up.” Jonathan said, the fight out of his tone, but he was still firm. He was scared. His hands brushed hair out of her face, and she flinched at how cool his hands were. 

“It’s worse.” He mumbled, cursing under his breath.